March 4th, 2006

Hi,
This coming Wednesday will be exactly a year since my grandmother took her leave from this world. Who knew then that only 4 weeks later, Mom would go too. I'm blogging right now because I'm not going to have time during the week. I have an exam in a week and will be studying a lot during the week. I'm listening to my grandparents on I-tunes right now; last year mom helped me convert these religious hymns that my grandparents sand many years ago, from tape to mp3 format. A year ago this time, I was at home spending the weekend with my parents. I was spending the weekend with Mom as it was the first weekend I could come home since we had found out that she would be having an operation. We talked about the operation a little but it wasn't the main topic of conversation. On saturday evening, I talked to my uncle and he told me in a round about way that my grandmother was leaving. So, I was preparing myself, and mom was helping me. My grandmother had been getting worse over the previous months but I didnt expect her to leave only 4 days after I had the talk with my uncle and mom. We spent some time finding old videos and tapes of times I had spent with my grandmother. Mom and I talked about my upcoming spring break trip that she had agreed and encouraged me to go on. What a weekend, I can remember parts of it vividly.
After my grandmother passed away, I went on my trip, and I came back and talked to mom about my trip a little. To ease the tension and make her laugh, I told her there was nothing for her to worry about, there was no room for her up there in heaven cause my grandmother was a handfull and they needed to adjust to hosting her before mom could be allowed in. We had a good laugh. I can't believe a year has gone by since ben left. And even more than that, I cant believe that it will soon be a year since that dreaded day.

This weekend, in 2007, fell on Holi, one of my favorite hindu festivals. I chose not to play last year because Mom was in the hospital and that was more important to me. I chose not to play this year because i had to study. priorities :o) but one of these days, I'll play and she'll play with me wherever she is. Dad stayed busy with weekend, with taking pictures at the temple. I was pretty proud of him.